Just starting out

Let me be honest with you - I’m scared of failure. A lot of evenings I go home thinking “Was quitting my 9-17 the right thing to do?”

I’ve struggled with my mental health for a long long time and starting to do my own thing has done magic. I’m happier and more content than ever, but I still have anxiety. Seeing so many people on social media seeming to do well really hits me. I start questioning whether I’m doing enough, should I narrow things down, am I talented, will I survive?

I’m the kind of person who wants everything fast and is never satisfied with the accomplishments made so far. I literally have to stand still and tell myself “You did good today” ten times over, until I sort of get it through my thick head.

So yes, I’m scared. Sometimes terrified even. But I also have hope and I believe in my capability to push through. We small makers and artists have to remember to not compare ourselves to others and remember that we’re doing what we do because we’ve always dreamed about it and have now taken the brave leap to make it happen.

I wish us courage, pride, love and acceptance.